There lies a void within this soul which nothing more than words can fill
An emptiness out of time and space and human understanding
The hunger to express is eating this shell alive
A feeling of lack of belonging to any time or place
A resignation to that which cannot be
Lost within a world that has no eyes to see
Frustration at living a life that was never meant for this
Unaware of where the edges line up in this puzzle
I have yet to find myself among the chaos
Where once there was passionate revolt now stands a timid drone
The world spins carelessly around and in nearly every inch there is found a severe beauty I fade
Losing myself to a life that would swallow every inch of me whole and spit me out a shell
Hollow and lifeless
Expression is the ultimate release and I seem to have forgotten how to express save for these words on this screen
Once there stood a girl believing she could change the world with her words
Now stands a woman ashamed to show any sign of difference
Ah how the times change us..life changes us…and what of those who wish to find themselves
What then…a discovery…a breakdown… a scream without a sound…
I have yet to rediscover myself in all this chaos..
Time moves faster now
Days blurred to weeks, months,years
Where have you gone
Long lost to those that would make it disappear
That gaping hole in a soul waiting for something
The sun fades and in the still stark darkness it lies
That solitude of empty dark polluted with headlights and animals crys
The most peaceful seconds of a world moving a lightspeed toward time spent
The past falls behind us like scattered pages of a book no one cared for
When into the future we move to quickly to remember all that came before
Forgotten love and unrequited losses gain importance with years too soon to appreciate yesterday we flash to three tomorrows from now
Lost in the void are the people we once were
Cherished ideals give way to reality and we become all that was said we would never be
Lost, wondering what we may have been or where I could have gone
Had things only been different
Appreciation for the experiences that make up our book and regret for the persons lost to now
Where is she and when did I lose her I wonder daily what she could’ve been and how she died and when
There is a poignancy in the lyrics of a song that while undeniably catchy and annoyingly common to us all hits a chord to those that can identify with everyword in their own right. A resonance that sits on your heart and seeps into your soul evoking an emotional and physical response that cannot be duplicated with each and every note no matter how desparately we try to find that which inevitably brought us to this conclusion
Fall approaches faster now
The leaves are chasing the summer from the trees and its colder nightly
I cannot wait stars in the night sky and nights that go on forever
old sweaters and boots too high
comfort food and movies
The simplicity of slowing down to enjoy all of this and breathe
Before it is gone
I dreamed once that I would express myselfwith reckless abandon
in words that the world would one day see
Now I melt into the day to day sea of people just existing
My dreams melt and fade but the words remain static in my soul
Creeping ever closer to the surface they scream
